so I will never lose it again!!!

Perfect Chocolate Chip Cookies

1 3/4 c all purpose flour

1 tsp. baking soda

1 tsp. salt

1/2 c unsalted butter, room temp
1/2 c. shortening

1 c. brown sugar

1 c. sugar, minus 2 TBS white sugar

2 large eggs

1 1/2 tsp. vanilla

1 1/2 c chocolate chips

Mix dry ingredients, set aside. Cream butter and shortening on high 1-3 minutes on high until light and fluffy

Add sugars, beat on high 1-2 minutes, add eggs and vanilla, beat until fully incorporated. Add chocolate chips, mix then add flour, mix only until flour is fully blended in. Dough should be slightly sticky. Roll into balls (1.5") place on ungreased cookie sheet. Refrigerate 30 minutes until firm. Preheat oven to 375. Bake 8-10 minutes, should be domed and puffy, lightly browned and look slightly underdone. Leave on cookie sheet 2 min. Cool on wire rack.

Love Hate relationship with my body

In my dream days I weighed 165 and I thought I was fat I thought that the "fat" on my sides were to flabby. Boy was my view skewed. Do I wish I had that body? No! I have had two full term pregnancy's, one miscarriage, nursed two children and have depression eating habits that I have survived. Sounds like my body has been threw a war zone, I would call child labor a war zone.

After having Matthew I was at my peak of weight. Don't you love that you weighed 6 weeks after having your baby and the nurse gives you that look of why haven;t you lost the 50lbs you gained yet? What your not wearing your pre-baby pants yet? What is wrong with you? With Matthew I was up at 250lb. I knew once that baby was out of me it was my turn to get my body back.

The one thought that has helped me threw this and is still helping me is trying to be different then yesterday. Often I wake up dreading working out but I resolve by convincing myself just to work out 10 min, 15 min, just run 1 mile, just do something.

Well it has worked I lost 70lb. WOW that's a lot. ok ok 9.1 of that was Matthew.

I'm not back to my 165 and I don't think I ever will. I was that weight while working out 3-4 hours a day, 5 times a week and sometimes Saturday. But 175 is calling my name.

ps I am sucking it in and turning sideways. 

Finding the Mountains Again

I am a lucky mama my hubby's work schedule is two weeks on 8am-5pm in the office or if there is no work then he comes home early. But when a job call out he is gone for 16 hours to three days. Fallowing his two weeks on he has a week off. 

Which means we play!

Sequoia Forest

Went to the mountains and it was calming.

We have started to make a list of requirements of our perfect place to live.

It includes being 20 min from the mountains MAX

I miss them.

long time no see

Sad news my camera was lost hence there hasn't been an update since playing in the rain.

Well since then I have lost in total 50 lbs and feel much better about myself. But still have more weight to go but another changed has happened. I'm almost done nursing Matthew he is 10 months and with that approaching it seems that my hormones levels are calming down and the real Sarah has resurfaced again.

With Sarh coming back, fun has also. We have been biking weekly, along with hiking. It feels so good to strap Matthew to my back grab Mason's hand and go off to the mountains. We love being outside, it helps that the weather has been sunny and 60-70 degrees!

Some of our new hobbies include

learning about planets and stars

Searching for fossils and shark teeth

Hiking

Eat yummy food

Biking